time crunch

when 24 hours is not enough

what do you cut back on?

that is what is TRULY unimportant to you.

all the other bull you talk during fair weather is useless.

Be my source, be my hope

Be my only one.

the words to the song that im writing

time after time i have fallen short of your glory

yet your agape has never failed to restore me

i fall down before your throne because i'm unworthy

yet you take this act and call it worship

how amazing: the miracle of salvation

how amazing: Christ was the solution

forever i will live for Your glory and praise

be it far from me that i should ever walk away

deliver me from my sin and my shame

as i sing this song, i want to never be the same

how amazing: You're renewing my mind

how amazing: i'll bow down to lift your name high

rev 15

great and marvelous are your deeds, Lord God Almighty

just and true are your ways, King of the ages.

Who will not fear you, O Lord, and bring glory to your name?

For you alone are holy

All the nations will come and worship before you,

for your righteous acts have been revealed.

from a post in 08

there is a tree planted by streams of water
the tree works hard to try to keep the wet soil from eroding away
he blames the stream for his tiredness and all
only to realise,
the stream gives him strength to keep everything together.

reflections in a glass of water

Reflections on 21 days.

i was praying that God would save mamakongkong (maternal grandma and grandpa).

that God would grant me a new tongue.

for various people and their families.

first and third nothing yet.

but 2, which is personal, OMGSH, i think God has granted it to me! just realised it today when praying before worship at Megalife. when i was praying for myself and stuff, it was shurabasekaetaerama (something like that) but when i was interceding for megalife it was kiyalalala basekaerlalala (something like that!) and it was completely natural! happened on a few other ocassions too just that i didnt get a chance to realise that one was warfare kind, the other was more building up kind! the building up kind being the new one! (:

awesome!

other than that, i feel my heart is revived. its like ive realised that my ministry is not to tell people to Go. my ministry is first and formost to GO! it is my responsibility to shake up the place God has put me in.

i feel a burning desire to look outward and not inward.

im itching to let people know that there is more to life! that there is hope and grace and salvation!

hearing abby share on church at work really struck a chord in my heart! i want in on that!

hearing joyee share about her street e with her sec 1s. 11 salvations! how awesome is that!!!

Lord! open up the heavens and pour out a mighty rain!

Reflections on leadership

sometimes i really have no idea what to do!

oh God give me wisdom!

you placed me here, your word you threw at me.

i received it, ive obeyed it.

now i think its fair for me to demand that you PLEASE HELP ME.

i cant do this on my own,

this burden of leadership give me strength to hold

your sheep, your loves, i dare not take lightly

this call, i pray is truly Yours.

Reflections on life

i feel like at ostrich sometimes.

fast, strong.

but im a bird that cant fly.

pondering songs

so you know about the mike guliemucchi incident where he actually wrote the song healer, as a cry about his porn addiction, but lied to everyone that he was suffering from cancer and was dieing. was i hurt? yeah. i mean, a man of God whom i respect lied about everything i respected him for.. of course i'd be shocked and hurt.

i wonder what has happened to him? like is he rehabilitating? is he under counselling or discipline?

whatever the case, the song speaks to me. i have my struggles, like him. lust and whatever. im blessed by it everytime i hear it.

i watched the video of him leading that song, with his tubes and all. EVERYONE in that auditorium was just totally worshipping whole-heartedly to that song. for me, if i was there, and i had a terminal cancer person leading a song about God being a healer (even though he has not been healed) i would totally be touched by his faith. amazing. proclaiming God's healing power even before he was healed. thats some serious confidence in the character of God.

yeah, so everyone was worshipping... but wasn't it that the holy spirit was like touching them and all as they sang that song? was God blessed by their worship?

i think so you know.. because at that point, everyone's hearts were "right" assuming that deceit is what we are considering here... only mike was the liar. even then, though he was lying to everyone, in his heart, he knew what he was singing about.. does God listen to his worship even as he is sinning while engaging?

so like, God works despite our sins and our unrighteousness and our ignorance. THANK GOD AND PRAISE HIM! he is holy yet merciful to receive us in our imperfect states. oh but it really sucks to be mike. i mean.. i really hope that things turn around and that he'll get back, but its just so hard. image and reputation and all. Gone. He ought to be disciplined and to face the consequences of his actions.. but i pray that God's grace will be sufficient. and that in his weakness, HIS power will be made perfect.

but for all worshippers, this is why it is important for us to sing our own song to God and not someone else's. we don't completely know every story behind every song. and yes, in a sense, ignorance is bliss, but i'd rather not you know what i mean? i mean, its like, sinning in ignorance, is still sin, and perhaps God will forgive you on account of his mercy and grace, but wouldn't you, a "lover of God" want to know your sins so that you can deal with them and please God more? i would. likewise, though singing a tainted song in ignorance is not sin, but i would like to make my worship truly MINE. and leave no chance of taintedness from anyone. you know what i mean?