pondering songs

so you know about the mike guliemucchi incident where he actually wrote the song healer, as a cry about his porn addiction, but lied to everyone that he was suffering from cancer and was dieing. was i hurt? yeah. i mean, a man of God whom i respect lied about everything i respected him for.. of course i'd be shocked and hurt.

i wonder what has happened to him? like is he rehabilitating? is he under counselling or discipline?

whatever the case, the song speaks to me. i have my struggles, like him. lust and whatever. im blessed by it everytime i hear it.

i watched the video of him leading that song, with his tubes and all. EVERYONE in that auditorium was just totally worshipping whole-heartedly to that song. for me, if i was there, and i had a terminal cancer person leading a song about God being a healer (even though he has not been healed) i would totally be touched by his faith. amazing. proclaiming God's healing power even before he was healed. thats some serious confidence in the character of God.

yeah, so everyone was worshipping... but wasn't it that the holy spirit was like touching them and all as they sang that song? was God blessed by their worship?

i think so you know.. because at that point, everyone's hearts were "right" assuming that deceit is what we are considering here... only mike was the liar. even then, though he was lying to everyone, in his heart, he knew what he was singing about.. does God listen to his worship even as he is sinning while engaging?

so like, God works despite our sins and our unrighteousness and our ignorance. THANK GOD AND PRAISE HIM! he is holy yet merciful to receive us in our imperfect states. oh but it really sucks to be mike. i mean.. i really hope that things turn around and that he'll get back, but its just so hard. image and reputation and all. Gone. He ought to be disciplined and to face the consequences of his actions.. but i pray that God's grace will be sufficient. and that in his weakness, HIS power will be made perfect.

but for all worshippers, this is why it is important for us to sing our own song to God and not someone else's. we don't completely know every story behind every song. and yes, in a sense, ignorance is bliss, but i'd rather not you know what i mean? i mean, its like, sinning in ignorance, is still sin, and perhaps God will forgive you on account of his mercy and grace, but wouldn't you, a "lover of God" want to know your sins so that you can deal with them and please God more? i would. likewise, though singing a tainted song in ignorance is not sin, but i would like to make my worship truly MINE. and leave no chance of taintedness from anyone. you know what i mean?